What's wrong with me?

what's wrong with me? no matter what i cant seem to catch a break.i feel so lonely all the time first of all i never had a boyfriend never been loved no friends at all my child hood was very violent my siblings hate me with a deep pion i feel like killing myself because i have no reason to live i wake up sad and go bed sad its painful to know they talk to each other and not me its like im just living for the moment i hate life i hate i was even born help me please!